“i want love to
roll me over slowly,
stick a knife inside me,
and twist it all around.
i want love to
grab my fingers gently,
slam them in a doorway,
put my face into the ground.
i want love to
murder my own mother and,
take her off to somewhere,
like hell or up above.
i want love to
walk right up and bite me,
grab ahold of me and fight me,
leave me dyin’ on the ground.
and i want love to
split my mouth wide open and,
cover up my ears and,
never let me hear a sound.
i want love to
forget that you offended me,
or how you had defended me
when everybody tore me down.
yeah, and I want love to
change my friends to enemies,
change my friends to enemies,
and show me how it’s all my fault.
yeah, i won’t let love
disrupt,
corrupt or,
interrupt me,
anymore…”
—john anthony gillis